Lorax-Appleseed Connection.

  Recently, I took my kids to see The Lorax. We used to have to watch the reel to reel movie in elementary school. I was never a big fan of Dr. Seuss. Mostly because the books had too many words on the page. I wasn't a big reader at that age. I would babysit for neighbor kids and I would skip pages of the bedtime stories.  As I got older, I learned to appreciate the joy of words and reading. 

  The thing I liked about the book was the character, The Once-ler, the musician who actually was responsible for cutting down the trees.

All I could think about during the whole movie was how much the Once-ler reminded me of a young musician that I know. Andrew Brown. Here he is with the band.

He is third from the left- or right. He's in the middle.

The Appleseed Collective at Shei Magazine

To read the Interview that the band did with Shei Magazine, click above. To learn more about this great band, go here ....O.... The guy on the far left is my brother. They are an awesomely talented group.

Both the movie and the Band have to do with a seed.

I have recently lost my job which I loved.

I was spoiled. I was settling because everything was easy. I could use it as an excuse to not have energy for the important things. Losing it made me look at what I was avoiding. I am now spending my free time dealing with those issues and reevaluating my goals.

It was a job with skills that do not easily transfer to a new position. As i go through the process of finding a new way to earn money, I realize this more and more. I felt that I was treated unfairly at my previous job and this is my rant.

I am trying to catalog my previous experiences into a transferable set of accomplishments and strengths.

First, I will weed out my weaknesses as I see them:

I have a witty and sometimes, dark sense of humor. People are sometimes offended. I give honest advice and have experience to back it up. I am candid, I observe my surroundings and comment on what some people find obvious. Often the obvious is the most over-looked.

I hate to leave a job undone. I would rather procrastinate than start something I cannot finish. If I do start a project, I will use any means necessary to complete it. In previous situations, this has led to unauthorized overtime, working for free and motivating team members to complete their portion of the project.

I don't like to be bored. If my job is complete or if I have to wait for something, I will fill my time helping others or doing other tasks.

I have no patience for less than exemplary performance by myself or others. I prefer to dress casual although I will clean up for the right position.

I am very cometitive when it comes to being the best at what I do.

Those are just a few of my weaknesses. I will add more and continue with my strengths soon.

A Peek At My Strengths

I am:

Creative in my thoughts words and actions.

Curious -I will learn as much as I can about a subject I am interested in.

Open-minded, just because something didn't work before doesn't mean it can't ever work.

Flexible, I will come to where you are to approach a project. I can work with you to come up with logical solutions.

Completion oriented. I hate to leave work undone.

I like to work independently but also work well with a team.

My previous experiences include working in hotels, restaurants & clothing stores,

planning events, floral design, doll making and more.

Everything But The Girl Apron Strings

This is going to be a complaining post
so I am warning you in advance. Don't read it and leave a comment about why don't I stop complaining and do something about my situation. I am doing something- complaining. Why? because then I can move on to solutions. If I get it out of my head, I will be free of the dirt of it so I can find the seed.

So I have these kids. I am always letting them get away will crap and making excuses for them. Why? because I am lazy. I feel guilty if I don't bring them everywhere with me because I don't spend enough time with them.
This is an excuse. I spend all of my time with them.
I fear so much for them that I end up doing exactly what I fear most. Turning them into little criminals. Or worse.
The thing is, I don't have enough time alone to take care of myself. When I do have the time, I take care of them, even though I convince myself- half heartedly, that I am doing what needs to be done.
For example, cleaning their rooms, doing their laundry, finding their lost library materials, cleaning their messes.
I can't find a balance.
I am trying to do some things for myself to boost my energy and take care of my health.
Drinking water instead of soda pop.
Eating lower fat snacks. Pretzels instead of Ding-Dongs. Growing vegetables which I will eventually eat if the rabbits don't get to them first.

Trying to pretend/show that I care about my 17 year old more- because it don't really know how I could care MORE about him- It probably isn't possible.
I just don't know how to prove it to him.

I always had this fantasy that letting children be themselves is the best thing I can do for them. I guess I was wrong. You have to teach them who they "are" and then let them rebel against it until they are old enough to either be who they want to be or go to therapy to figure out who they were supposed to be. I am somewhere in the middle of that myself, so I am having trouble. It is a conundrum.

So that is my rant for now. I hope to straighten things out a little bit at a time.

A post!

I am trying to get myself to write more. My goal in life is to eventually write a whole book.
It is hard for me to just sit down and do it. I am always worrying about what else needs to be done.
And when I do feel like writing, I don't have the proper supplies- it is usually while I am doing something where it is impossible to stop and write. I wish I had headphones I could wear that attach to an ipod type thing that records my thoughts. Like the reverse phone number look-up. Maybe in a few more years. I know I could get a little tape recorder but everyone would think I was mental. I know, who cares? but I would get fired.

Which one will you be?


“All parents damage their children.
It cannot be helped.
Youth, like pristine glass, absorbs the prints of its handlers.
Some parents smudge, others crack, a few shatter childhood
completely into jagged little pieces, beyond repair.”
-Mitch Albom, The Five People You Meet in Heaven